When we finally made the decision to move, it wasn’t easy. Oh sure, in my previous post, I mentioned that I got excited after being sad, but the truth is, there are SO many emotions that have run through me that depending on the minute, you might get a different answer.
Moving is so exciting but it’s filled with SO many other emotions thanks to going away parties with friends, family and coworkers, job interviews and the not-so-thrilling adventure that is apartment hunting.
Beyond the stress of logistics, the start of something new brings with it conflicting feelings of excitement and anxiety. In these last few weeks, I’ve had ALL the emotions. The list that follows shows the emotional roller coaster that I’ve experienced as a direct result of our impending move to Vancouver.
When The Mister got on board with moving, I got REALLY excited. When I found a job, it was even MORE exciting. I am SO excited to see old friends, be near the mountains and to find new-to-us spots in our new city. It’s always exciting to start a new chapter in your life!
A week later, I found myself riding on the subway home from work and I couldn’t breathe. My throat was closing, and my hands and legs were shaking so bad that I could barely stand up, and I had no idea why. Anxiety had become a long-lost friend that I forgot I had, thanks to being so comfortable in Toronto. Thoughts of panic kept running through my head. The things I was excited about, were the things that made me terrified. Starting a new chapter is terrifying, it means I am ending another chapter that I am 100% comfortable with, but we all know life is WAY more exciting when you break out of your comfort zone.
Anxiety goes hand-in-hand with doubt. SO many doubts kept running through my head. “Can I do this?”, “Is this the right move for us?” and “How are we going to move ALL of our stuff across the country”. “How will I leave my family, knowing I’ll miss out on all the fun things and all the important things like watching my niece grow up.” Those are just a couple of the questions that run through my head at any given moment. Staying where I am is easy, but I know the rewards of doing something outside of my comfort zone is SO worth it.
I expected sadness to creep in when I was already there. Call me naive, but I assumed that I’d be so busy with the logistics of moving that I could block out most of the emotions until I’d moved to Vancouver but with a series of going away parties, I’m confronted by these very emotions WAY too often. I know it’s okay to be sad, but it doesn’t make it very fun when I have things to do to get ready for the move.
We’ve booked our plane tickets, we’ve got jobs, there is no going back. This is where I am right now as I write this. I’m not moving to a foreign country, I have friends in Vancouver and my family will visit often. I am starting a new job and that’s always fun and exciting. I’ve done this before. I’ve got this.
Toronto, will always have a place in our heart, but we’re ready for a new adventure.
So tell me, have you ever done a big move? How did you cope? Did you go through as many emotions as I did? Any tips and tricks for beating homesickness?